Musings

To Catch A Narcissist

Posted by Alicia Williams on

Have you or your loved ones ever been personally victimized by a person who always had to be the victim in a situation? I mean no matter how things were going and what could be going wrong, YOU were always at fault.. even if YOU were expressing how you had been wronged? Well you my friend, have been a victim of the trap of a classic narcissist. Back in the day, I used to stay up way in the late hours to watch one of my favorite shows, TCAP, To Catch a Predator, for the slow ones. And Basically Chris...

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Trying to figure this sh*t out, but also realizing maybe there’s nothing to really understand?

Posted by Alicia Williams on

  I'LL BE HONEST: MY MIND HAS BEEN EVERYWHERE LATELY. I've been back on meds for a little under 30 days.  Highlights: My thoughts are linear again I'm no longer thinking 19748962987 thing a day and now I average about 25 thoughts a day I've lost about 19 total pounds  Lowlights: I am one MOODY ASS BITCH - I mean I ask to speak to the manager EVERYWHERE I go. I am irritated by the wind blowing my hair the wrong direction in my face I'm hardly ever tired I really don't care about ANYTHING.. Anything? Well, I take that...

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How pushing myself to the emotional maximum almost cost me my full sanity

Posted by Alicia Williams on

We are all brainwashed by a multitude of things. Capitalism, "Push-through it" culture, "it's not that bad" culture, that "someone has it worse than you, so you should suck it up" culture, and so much more.  I personally am brainwashed by all of those above and maybe even a few more.  I'm also brainwashed by the toxic notion that having bipolar disorder is some of the worse shit in the world to have. Like, no doubt, I'm not playing, I really believe it sometimes.  It's probably why for years I play this game of stop and start with my medications...

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How shadow work revealed my fear of commitment

Posted by Alicia Williams on

I'll be the first to tell you that I am on a journey of becoming healthy, happy and WHOLE. I often find it disturbing when others say they are seeking their "better half"so that they could finally be the person they know they are meant to be.. For me, you should become that person before you meet your life partner, because then you become an enhanced version of your already comfortable greater self.  In order to be that whole being, I know that I have to be able to travel within the shadows and take a close look at the woman...

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My Life Looks Nothing Like anyone else's and here's why

Posted by Alicia Williams on

  A few years ago, I reached a boiling point in my life and needed a hard reset. I'm sure plenty of people have gone through a life changing moment, and mine came at the age of 24.  I had lived in Cincinnati my whole life minus the four years away in Oxford for college, but still in Ohio. I had friends there, family, and a partner but I still was deeply unfulfilled.  I'd been working as a pharmacy technician, and I knew that I could easily transfer the national license and secure a job anywhere, so I channeled all...

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